This is my second week of little moments of happiness where I try to remember all the little moments of happiness I’ve had in the past week to try to keep me focused and positive. To be honest this week has been horrendous and emotionally draining (read about my week here), but by writing down little things during the week which have made me smile, it shows even in the most awful week I think I’ve had, I have still done things that have made me smile. People who haven’t dealt with depression often assume that to be depressed that you cry all day and never smile, which for me isn’t true. I have cried far too much this week, and have felt like I’m trying to stay afloat in a river with a brick tied around my foot, but I have still smiled, laughed and I can reflect back now and see the little moments of happiness that will lift my spirit and I hope yours.
- A walk with my husband and son around the park to feed the ducks, having a play on the swing and enjoying a cup of tea and slice of cake outside. I also managed to get some lovely pictures.
- My Tots 100 score moving up 455 places to 727. I might still have a long way to go, but I’m really happy how well my blog is doing considering it focuses on such an uncomfortable topic for many people.
- A few weeks ago I made plans to make a goals/mood board and this week my board was delivered and my husband hung it for me. I plan to add lots of stuff to keep me focused, make me smile and inspire me. I asked my daughter (4.5 years) to draw a picture of our family to be our centre piece for the board and every time I see it, it fills me full of love.
- I’m very lucky to have some amazing friends around me and for the last 7 years or so we’ve done Friday fajita nights around each other houses when we can all get together. We don’t do it as often, now we have so many children and commitments between us and we’ve upgraded from doing a picnic on the floor in our small two bedroom houses to now our family homes complete with a dining table. With everything that can be wrong in your life in that moment, getting together with friends and having a gossip, everything is all right with the world again.
- The final thing this week that really made me smile was seeing a sprinkle of snow. unfortunately we didn’t get much, but for a short while it was coming down thick and fast and me and the children ran around playing outside. It felt like the slate was being cleared and it was a chance to start over.
This week is half term and my husband starts a week of nights which I always find challenging, but I have plans to get out and about and will start back at work on Friday. I feel like I’m turning a corner and am doing everything to stay focused on the main goal ahead, which is to get better for my family.